Economic Shithouse

I'm seriously scared right now.  My landlady just went ape-shit on me and said I wasn't allowed to sublet my apartment.  Actually, we aren't allowed to have anyone stay with us at all, let alone sublet.  So that means I have to pay $825/month in rent while I'm gone and making $400/week.  Plus gas, student loan, health insurance, groceries, cable, birth control, etc.  I don't think I've ever been so scared in my life.  I am seriously thinking about going off birth control because it will save me $32 a month.  This means I can't go out to eat, have a drink, go see a movie - nothing!  What difference would it have made to the landlady?  She would still get $1650 for rent!  She's also had noise complaints a.k.a. her cousin who lives downstairs has complained about "heavy objects being dropped on the floor."  Occasionally, a cell phone or a remote will be knocked off a table accidentally.  Onto the HARDWOOD FLOOR.  If you're so concerned about it, carpet the damn apartment!  

I just feel like I can't live in and enjoy my own apartment.  I can't wait til June comes so we can get the fuck out.  But really, I want to have a house.  Where we are the only people who live in it.  With a yard.  And space.  And trees.  And a dog.  And where we can be as loud as the hell we want!!  I saw these people on the news who are raffling off their $1.28 million house for $50 a ticket.  It's this amazing house in Edgewater, Maryland.  I think I've decided we have to win and move to Maryland.